2012

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~1~ Our first Christmas without Sophia is almost upon us.  Nothing about it is easy.  It hurts, but we continue to take steps forward, without her.  I struggle to get through each day and Mark is so distracted with work that we are often on completely different pages, different places in our grief.  That in itself is

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I recently listened to a talk by Jeff Cavins, a brilliant former protestant pastor turned Catholic speaker, writer, editor, teacher, and so much more.  This particular talk that moved me deeply was titled “15 Things to do in the Midst of Suffering” and I highly recommend it to anyone seeking comfort during physical, spiritual, or emotional

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~ 1 ~ Ba-humbug.  I am not enjoying this season, at all.  It is usually a struggle this time of year because of the stress and hours that Mark takes on at work.  The combination of the stress and work he feels carries over to me because I worry about him.  And it’s lonely around

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Sophia was such a gift to us.  Carrying her for 6 months as she grew inside of me, feeling her last kicks and movements, delivering her beautiful, still body.  As difficult as all of that was and still is, it was all such a gift.  To carry an angel within my womb will always be one

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It’s not that I haven’t felt thankful.  But I am in a funk.  The holidays, the lack of sleep, the never-ending to-do list, the cleaning and laundry that I can’t seem to get a grip on, the emotions that vary from minute to minute.  Exhausting.  But today I choose to look back at this month

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Twenty weeks ago today my whole world changed.  My worst nightmare came true and I am still trying to wrap my brain around that fact.  As a family we are healing and learning to live this new life without one of our members.  The hole left by Sophia is as obvious today as it was

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They say timing is everything and I have to agree that it is very true in our life right now.  Having lost Sophia just 4 1/2 months ago still seems surreal but the distractions that have been thrown into our life since then were quite obviously just the way it was supposed to be. On

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Last weekend Mark did some work with the bees.  Then he got stung, again.  I lost count of how many times this makes long ago.  The swelling seems to get a bit worse each time. Local people:  We have several 8 oz bears for sale still.  $4.00 each for local raw honey.  Contact me asap

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::This morning I struggled, really struggled, to get out of bed at 4:50am to go to strength training class, finally mustered up the will but only because I know that I get tomorrow off. ::During conversation with dear husband found out that our health insurance premiums will likely go up yet again.  Possibly 18% more.

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Recently there has been a lot of extra discussion and prayer in our home about the state of the world. I won’t go into detail because I am pretty sure that we are not the only ones concerned and having these same conversations.  What we keep coming back to though is that in order to