baby

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For the past 18 months I have often wondered what “normal” means. What does that even look like? After losing Sophia, our life as a family of 4 has seemed to be anything but normal.  Though I’m not sure what normal really means for us, there are a few things about it that I do

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July 6, 2013, was our dear Sophia’s first birthday in Heaven.  It is so hard to believe that a year has gone by already. Sometimes it seems like it was so long ago that we held that sweet little girl.  Other times it feels like it was just yesterday. I had no idea exactly what

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Even though 9 months have passed since we had/lost Sophia, I still have no idea what I am doing.  I still don’t understand how to do this.  I struggle with knowing where to go from here.  I struggle with knowing just how much people want to hear about her, or how little.  I struggle with

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Dear Sophia, My sweet, baby girl, I miss you so much.  It seems like just when I’ve come to grips with the fact that you are not here with us, another milestone comes up and it just makes me mad and sad all over again.  Not mad at you.  Just mad because I am selfish

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Distracting myself with writing about other topics here has been a welcome break lately.  Not that I really need to be distracted though, that comes pretty naturally anymore.  Multi-tasking is kicking my behind most days.  But I keep trudging along; living, breathing, eating, sleeping, teaching, loving, praying, hugging, crying, talking, reading, rinse and repeat. I realized

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Finding Hope and Healing (With or Without a Rainbow) For this post, we will share our experiences with longing for another baby to fill our empty arms. Some experienced a subsequent pregnancy after loss. Some may be fearful of embarking on that journey again. Some may not be able to have another child, whether due

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Clinging in the Pit If you are not new to loss, talk a bit about early grief. What was it like, clinging for hope in the pits of despair? What did you cling to for hope? How did you survive the early days? What helped? What do you wish you could share with someone new

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I have decided to join in a blog hop called Walking With You, hosted by Sufficient Grace Ministries.  It’s as much for me as it is for you.  I hope we both get something out of it.   Introduction and Where are You Now? Tell us a little about yourself, your baby, and how you’ve

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~ 1 ~ Ba-humbug.  I am not enjoying this season, at all.  It is usually a struggle this time of year because of the stress and hours that Mark takes on at work.  The combination of the stress and work he feels carries over to me because I worry about him.  And it’s lonely around

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Sophia was such a gift to us.  Carrying her for 6 months as she grew inside of me, feeling her last kicks and movements, delivering her beautiful, still body.  As difficult as all of that was and still is, it was all such a gift.  To carry an angel within my womb will always be one