Faith

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Overall I think I am doing OK most days, but sometimes, sometimes… ::I want to stay in bed and not have any responsibilities all day. ::I want to cry, a lot.  Ugly cry.  You know the kind. ::I just want to freak out at other parents when their bad parenting choices are really obvious because

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It is hard to believe that nearly 16 weeks have passed since we had Sophia.  3 1/2 months.  I don’t know how the days keep moving but they do.  God’s grace truly is sufficient enough for us.  Without it, this life would not be possible.  Although I still think about her every single moment of

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Continued from Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, and Part 6…. After she arrived, her tiny little body was taken over to the baby station in the corner of the room.  The bag of water she was in was still fully intact so the nurse had to break that to get

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Today is my birthday. As much as I dread the clock ticking me closer and closer to a number that ends in zero, I look at the life that I have and I am so thankful.  The ache in my heart reminds me of the fact that I should be 37 weeks pregnant.  I should

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Continued from Sophia’s Story Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, and Part 4….. When Mark got home that night we tried to go to bed, knowing that we had to at least try to sleep.  We soon found that sleep was not even remotely possible.  That night began a series of nights to follow that

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Continued from Sophia’s Story-Part 1 and Part 2 After that painful movement the night of June 26th I continued to feel good and still felt small movements.  The baby was certainly not as active as it had been but I just figured it had shifted position so I couldn’t feel the movements as strongly. I remember

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From our early days of dating as teenagers Mark and I always talked about having a big family.  We both agreed that 5 or 6 kids would be nice.  We have always practiced Natural Family Planning and have always been open to life. Unfortunately, we can make the best laid plans but the final say

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On this beautiful fall-like day, I am thankful. Despite all of the obvious hurts, frustrations, tears, and struggles, we are so blessed.  I often think of what Mark said in our very first announcement when we found out Sophia’s heart had stopped beating: “This will NOT overshadow the many blessings God has bestowed upon us.”

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Today I am feeling very scatter-brained.  Truth be told I’ve felt that way for a long time now.  It started when I was pregnant and has just gotten worse since we had Sophia.  It’s weird how my life seems to be compartmentalized that way now.  Before Sophia.  Since we had Sophia. Before Sophia I bought

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I started writing this post a few days ago.  I was not sure exactly what I needed to say but I knew that the latest in emotions to have taken hold of my life, anxiety, would be the main topic. Yesterday I lay back in the recliner to rest my shoulders/neck after having been to the